In2Light by Mark Krueger

August 18, 2006

Worry in the Whirry

Wholly Shit! Lots of people are feeling wholly shitty. It isn't that life is bad, but it is noticeably annoying at best and at worst it's fingernails grinding on an infinite chalk board. Who kneads it? The mind kneads it and needs it and kneads it. And in our blessed time, you can be fully aware of what is always running in the Creation game. Welcome to the end of the Piscean Age when everything is topsy turvy inside out upside down (and melting backwards, if you let it). If you push the Dream forward these days it noticeably pushes back. This is not judgment upon your doings. This is your being excruciatingly aware of how it all to's and fro's and it ain't going anywhere but round and round. You are being aware of your dreams in the Dream. Still want to make your dreams come true? You are now aware of the so-called truth of the Dream and it truly is not you and you are truly not in it. Then what?

It is such a conditioned habit of the Game to be going somewhere doing something to be somebody. You can go against the grain by going transcendent and looping out dimensionally. If you focus and are wise and persistent, you can get the Game to shift. So? Just cuz you change channels doesn't mean you aren't staring into the tube. This is what is becoming apparent to folks in their spiritual pursuits. The relief that you always got in the transcendent game no longer suffices. It may, likely it will, make the pain go away. That's why all that stuff sells so well. But what folks are noticing now is that it doesn't make the suffering go away in any kind of way. Change clears nothing.

You can clear your identification in the Game if you claim your own consciousness directly. The Game will melt from around you. You will not go into "better" states. You'll be your self. You'll enjoy yourself as you watch the Game dissolve. I can show you how to do that if it interests you. It's my speciality.

The ongoing Jupiter/Saturn square is a very daunting thing, especially when they are in fixed signs near the power points of the Zodiac. All manner of issues around power keep coming up. What is realized is that power doesn't work. This is a deep bummer. No matter how you slice it, even from the extreme victim position, power is still exercised and results are gotten. Just as it is becoming clear to folks that spirit doesn't work, likewise, they are realizing that power doesn't work. Mundane power and spiritual power do not get rid of suffering. They change it. Now you can perceive that it doesn't matter a whole lot. You'll see yourself clamoring in all sorts of paths of power that you can feel secure in or feel threatened in the loss thereof, but if you are lucky you will see that it's all changing seats on the Hindenburg anyway.

Imagine Americans and America if they didn't have electricity or credit or money or automobiling or all the other powers built upon loss in the third world and the planet. This is what is festering to a head now. The sheer poverty of wealth is more and more apparent. I suppose in some weird ways the inverse will become apparent as well. A desolate nation of sand becomes obscenely wealthy in a generation. Native American casinos turn the equation of poverty on its head. Eat your peas because they're starving in China becomes: eat your peas because that's all you get cuz they're eating all the foie gras in China. Empires rise and fall and in the extreme peaks of power lie the inevitable bottom.

If you realize your own being, you will enjoy yourself all the time. Not flimsy bliss, but genuine delight of your being without effort, without hierarchical beholding and it doesn't come and go. It's your choice and more choice truly arises once you make that choice.

Half the planets are in Leo on the 21st and 22nd and then, voila, the Sun goes into Virgo on the 22nd at 11:23 pm PDT and on the 23rd there's a New Moon in that first degree of Virgo. Within a few more days, Mercury will enter Virgo, which it rules. So we get extreme Leo and then we get extreme Virgo, essence to essence and quite lovely at that. The Fixed Sign T-cross continues its potency worrying everybody about their wealth and security and power and then, poof, Virgo appears. Virgo offers the harvest, either materially or spiritually. Once again you get forked. That's the mind's modus operandi. It takes anything, splits it, projects it and gets you to chase after one end of a polarity like: the Light, Happiness, God/Good, Security. Chase on or be chastened.

Leo represents, among many things, incarnation. Virgo represents the human condition and conditioning. Leo represents the Heart and Love. Virgo represents the worry and fret over the loss and gain of that famously juicy system of debits and credits. How many of you are breaking up in a relationship or want to? Love doesn't work like we think it will whether its divine or mortal. Be with the ones you love in the way you want to be. You can't control them directly or indirectly ala prayer or intercession. You can try and you'll get major blowback from here on out. Not because anything is being done wrong but because you think you are doing something right. Blowback, karma is the Universe's way of telling you that that is all the system is capable of. Throw the stick, fetch, throw the stick. All the true believers groan and head for better sand for their head. Transcendence builds such a backlog of denied crud and then this stuff comes right up these days and propels folks to greater transcendence. So the world has to go to hell so folks can get to heaven. It's just meta physics not judgment. There's nothing right or wrong with any of it. That's the mind's favorite ploy of divide and conquer by distraction around shit that doesn't mean a damn thing. Are you tired yet?

I call zero degrees Virgo: the Sphinx Point. The Sphinx in Giza, Egypt has the body of a lion and the head of a human. In astrology, Leo the lion is followed by Virgo the human. Apparently I discovered or named this point almost thirty years ago. So I've been told. When I search Sphinx Point on the Web, it references me pretty much. I have found some references to the use of that term but none point to this zero Virgo point. I have lots of clients with planets in that point and likely I simply have some odd karma to reveal to them what it represents. I saw decades ago that if someone has a planet or Ascendant at that point, give or take one degree, they carry Silence. Wherever they go they deliver Silence. It's quite an attainment but the irony is that as a carrier of Silence, you don't get any. You deliver it and pick up people's noise whilst you're at it. It sets up a recurring pattern, which is germane to Virgo: to retreat, to turn in.

No other Sign is at all like Virgo and she carries out all manner of unseen and unappreciated duties and this is of course is her great pride (humility is spiritual pride). Finally it can be seen that Silence doesn't get rid of suffering, nor does meditating, Retreat, Pilgrimage, Humility and Service and they are all the bailiwick of dear and potent Virgo. All those favorite methods on the Path fail in ridding suffering because they are built on the higher mind's projections of the supposed magic of getting your higher self, or higher vibration or higher realm. If you up the vibration of a turd it's still a turd. You or the planet or whatever vibrating at a higher rate won't do shit except keep you busy and distracted chasing your tale. If you like that, have at it. It's infinite on the Wheel. If you are tired of the Game. Claim your own consciousness and clear your own karma and tales and heads and all the flipping coins of the flipping god blessed realms and beyond.

Remember, if you are old and weird enough, Mad Magazine with Alfred E. Neuman on the cover saying: What, me worry? Our dear president is sometimes shown suchly. The whole world is worrying greatly/grately and all manner of conditioning says no worries mate, what me worry, and so forth. Worry is the name of the game from here on out. Can you see that it's just endlessly one side of the mind worrying with the other side? That's the deal. Recognizing that won't rid you of various areas in your life that foster worry to no end. Direct intention will get those areas to melt and eventually you hit the bedrock of physicality, human bodiness and such. For instance, thirst is a worry built into the system. So is love and on and on.

This is the very frustration you may be recognizing these days. Aside from your noisy subset of personal worries, you are seeing the worriana of the mind, of the Dream itself. So worry all you like. Worry about worrying. Worry 'til the cows come home or not (where's the beef?). But let go of making it real. You can't stop the shit. IT'S THE PROGRAM, THE SOFTWARE. IT'S NOT YOU!

I get so tired of the worrisome toing and froing of something as simple as eat, shit, eat, shit and even eatshitanddie. It all loops in the most silly and unsatisfying ways. But because of my direct intention, I identify very little in the loops, though the loops are strong indeed in their noisiness. I enjoy myself all the time. I don't enjoy eating or shitting, but of course there are moments when the inherent delight of my own being gets projected out by the mind system on to the good eats or the good shit and then off it goes again. Mostly I just watch the to and fro, bored but giggling.

So go lightly through the intensity of Leo and Virgo and the whole drama field. Don't make stuff so real but really be and watch what transpires. Rather than strapping yourself into some magnificent self improvement project, how about enjoying yourself and see what derives from that.

The world is nothing but a crisis from here on. Christus=Crisis. Mohammed=Mo'Harmed. The victims and tyrants flail as if their fucking afterlife depended on it. What madness! It's all made up of pure silliness. They are hell bent on BeHaving. Either having shit or behaving per some golden tabletted control/out of control system.

Be. It's who you are. You can't attain it, get it higher or lower. It can't be lost, taken or attacked. It takes no effort or secret fucking handshake with magic words on top. You are your being, your own consciousness. All the rest are projections and maintain suffering even if you paint them in Light and Love and whatever. You simply are. All the rest is complex and life will get more and more ridiculously complexed while you are tending to your various complexes by some complex mechanisms that beget complications.

Have fun instead,
Mark

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