July 14, 2006
Born to Die.......for.......???
Happy Bastille Day. Viva la France! It's also my birthday. Viva my
being. To hell with my birthdaze. Viva your being. We've all been
cooking our births. The current planetary matrix adds to the post Grand
Cross hangover with this most unusual feeling of spacy/trapped, like
you know you're trapped but you can't get a handle on it and without
the handle you can't doing anything and and and....... floaty/stuck.
It's actually the story of what happens when you land into your body
when you incarnate. It's also what your body experiences in the
amniotic oven. Can you see the mirroring that occurs the moment you
land into your bod? One stuck feeling of the body mind patterns meets
the upon-arrival feelings of embodiment. Noticeably you feel powerless,
which is what folks will tend to be feeling now. Then in the
developmental process upon incarnating, you seek power, that is, the
ability to effect the external or internal environment, but....... you
don't have the info or mechanics to effect those changes. Meanwhile,
you're nursing a dual hangover in that your body just left the mommy
womb of certain comfort (most of the time) and your being just left the
etheric realms in which you tend to feel much more at home and
connected. Ouch. Wham bam I think I'm a human.
In this powerless stuck/floaty condition(ing), mommy/daddy become the
projection objects of power. They giveth and taketh life. So arises in
parallel mirroring the god the father, god the mommy projections.
Whichever comes first is the chicken and cosmic egg question and is
finally an irrelevant distraction cuz you're caught in the crossfire of
the mind's projections by now and you are getting buried alive.
Kootchie kootchie koooooooo........
The Sign of Cancer holds many of the archetypal patterns of mother,
birth, growth, nurturance, family and self. All of that gets stirred
during this season. Incarnating and early life imprints are the very
stuff that we either replicate or cook off in the course of our life.
There are a lot of feelings that come with that. Lots and lots. Guess
what can be coming up now..... along with all the frozen feelings
wrapped around those core issues when we got shut down for emoting in
response to our being slammed. Go ahead and get pissed off. It may not
be right or feel good, but take a dump, just not on others or yourself
preferably.
Enjoy the embrace of family if it suits you. Circling up the wagons in
what ever kind of collaboration in the name of security from injury and
death unfortunately does not work. Born to die. Life includes death.
Death includes an after life which of course includes a pre birth. The
light at the end of the tunnel is very likely to be next mommy's cervix
and the shine of the speculum. The Wheel goes round and round.
Consider facing your projections in your thoughts, feelings and
beliefs. What were you born to die for? What is to die for, for you?
The more you look, the more you will see the machinery. The ride at
Disneyland keeps you focused on the drama up ahead, but if you look
around you see the girders and chains. This process is going on for you
now. If you want your tunnel vision with the Light at the end, go
ahead. But remember that with it comes more vaginal chronicles of
birthing into some next dimensional change on the Hindenburg of it all.
There's no escape because you've never been trapped. You just have a
massive butt load of identification in stories of drama/karma/dharma.
All you will ever win in the Game is more game in the pursuit of
happiness and all other trinkets of attainment at The Mirage.
You can claim your own consciousness and clear your own identification
in the dream of Creation and it will fall away from you while you enjoy
yourself.
Or you can suffer while thinking the Path goes some place other than
round and round.
Go unfigure,
Mark