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by Mark Krueger

Archive 2006


July 14, 2006

Born to Die.......for.......???

Happy Bastille Day. Viva la France! It's also my birthday. Viva my being. To hell with my birthdaze. Viva your being. We've all been cooking our births. The current planetary matrix adds to the post Grand Cross hangover with this most unusual feeling of spacy/trapped, like you know you're trapped but you can't get a handle on it and without the handle you can't doing anything and and and....... floaty/stuck. It's actually the story of what happens when you land into your body when you incarnate. It's also what your body experiences in the amniotic oven. Can you see the mirroring that occurs the moment you land into your bod? One stuck feeling of the body mind patterns meets the upon-arrival feelings of embodiment. Noticeably you feel powerless, which is what folks will tend to be feeling now. Then in the developmental process upon incarnating, you seek power, that is, the ability to effect the external or internal environment, but....... you don't have the info or mechanics to effect those changes. Meanwhile, you're nursing a dual hangover in that your body just left the mommy womb of certain comfort (most of the time) and your being just left the etheric realms in which you tend to feel much more at home and connected. Ouch. Wham bam I think I'm a human.

In this powerless stuck/floaty condition(ing), mommy/daddy become the projection objects of power. They giveth and taketh life. So arises in parallel mirroring the god the father, god the mommy projections. Whichever comes first is the chicken and cosmic egg question and is finally an irrelevant distraction cuz you're caught in the crossfire of the mind's projections by now and you are getting buried alive. Kootchie kootchie koooooooo........

The Sign of Cancer holds many of the archetypal patterns of mother, birth, growth, nurturance, family and self. All of that gets stirred during this season. Incarnating and early life imprints are the very stuff that we either replicate or cook off in the course of our life. There are a lot of feelings that come with that. Lots and lots. Guess what can be coming up now..... along with all the frozen feelings wrapped around those core issues when we got shut down for emoting in response to our being slammed. Go ahead and get pissed off. It may not be right or feel good, but take a dump, just not on others or yourself preferably.

Enjoy the embrace of family if it suits you. Circling up the wagons in what ever kind of collaboration in the name of security from injury and death unfortunately does not work. Born to die. Life includes death. Death includes an after life which of course includes a pre birth. The light at the end of the tunnel is very likely to be next mommy's cervix and the shine of the speculum. The Wheel goes round and round.

Consider facing your projections in your thoughts, feelings and beliefs. What were you born to die for? What is to die for, for you? The more you look, the more you will see the machinery. The ride at Disneyland keeps you focused on the drama up ahead, but if you look around you see the girders and chains. This process is going on for you now. If you want your tunnel vision with the Light at the end, go ahead. But remember that with it comes more vaginal chronicles of birthing into some next dimensional change on the Hindenburg of it all.

There's no escape because you've never been trapped. You just have a massive butt load of identification in stories of drama/karma/dharma. All you will ever win in the Game is more game in the pursuit of happiness and all other trinkets of attainment at The Mirage.

You can claim your own consciousness and clear your own identification in the dream of Creation and it will fall away from you while you enjoy yourself.

Or you can suffer while thinking the Path goes some place other than round and round.

Go unfigure,
Mark