February 10, 2006
Unhide and Unseek
It's time for another Full Moon: the 12th at 8:44 pm PST. In the typical
human life you get about 1000 of these. This can have you feel like that's
forever or not long enough. Likely these days you feel both sentiments
about a whole range of things in your life. Existential angst continues to
march on in the psyche. You are seeing that no matter what you change or
what changes, the underlying Game remains. It's easy to be feeling cabin
fever, to be feeling trapped/stuck. Just remember that you are free.
Otherwise the strong tendency is to do something to get free. That sucks.
That sucks you into the old karmic loops.
Just do what you want to do.
Heavy, heavy karmas are popping off this week. Strange days of deep
undertow with unusual surface changes create a chronic sense of unease.
Perhaps the other shoe will drop, laced in fear, ready to sock it to you,
stinking with soulful aromas of the past. There's a great sense of wanting
to kick habits and step into a new life. Wanting to boot old stories out
of your life comes with the feeling that it's too big of a feat. One's
Achilles' heels are very evident. You may not exactly be on your toes
after the battering of five months of Grand Crossings and double
crossings. Stand where you are. Intend what you want. Direction will
appear, by your choosing. If you aren't clearly choosing, your choice
field collapses into your karmic, caricatured life again. By being clear
in your intentions you will be clear in your choosings. Otherwise you'll
know and struggle your way through. I hope you are getting tired of the
ancient strategy to get it right on top of feeling wrong. There is nothing
wrong or right about any of it or about you. There is just your choice.
But in the background is this constant subliminal sense that no matter
what choices you make, the suffering still won't go away. Well, that is
accurate. All efforts to make suffering go away continue to make suffering
real and thereby suffering simply comes back. Are you tired of the
pendulum yet? You are not suffering. Suffering will not do you any good,
and you know, finally, it doesn't do you any harm. It's just the stupid,
grinding noise of the Dream. It's supposed to be the sound of
learning/evolving, but you are becoming aware that it's the squeaky,
karmic Wheel of the whole business. As they say: the squeaky Wheel gets
the Grace; but now you can perceive that the lube of love hasn't
diminished the noise. This is the recognition in people's unconscious
which is driving the desperate acts upon the planet. Power of all kind,
mortal and immortal, is being seen for its own impotence to finally effect
the bottom line of suffering.
You can claim your own consciousness and clear your own karma and dissolve
your own suffering in the mortal and immortal realms........... if you
choose. I encourage you.
The Grand Cross is dismantling itself this week. Feelings of falling apart
thread through the mind. Let it fall apart. You won't fall apart. You may
pause and discharge the burdens of old stories that have chained you in
every sense of being chained. May the Circle be broken. May you become
unchained. May you be. Then comes the steady glee in the face of the
melting gray goo. Wink in wonder. Giggle with the gallows and glories. The
kaleidiscope is spinning out of control and right on time. After this
week, you can full on get on with things. This week, let it all go.
By the grace of your being,
Mark