December 2, 2005
Take Some Time for Yourself
Mercury goes direct on the 3rd at 9:24 pm EST. Hallelujah! It's been a
most intense passage. Mars opposes Jupiter on the 4th at 7:47 pm EST in
the heart of the Grand Cross. These days have been extremely difficult
for folks. My condolences to all those who take a breath. What can I
say to you that I haven't already said? I have never seen it so
oppressive in the psyche. Some days it gets hard to laugh. I remind you
that you are fine, but oh those feelings............
I don't think there's anything you can do about it all. You can undo
about all of it, undo your identification in it. This is not denial.
Ironically, you are more present with whatever is going on when you are
not thinking that you are in it. I do not mean transcendent, superior
to it or above the fray. I mean the realization that the Dream, the
endless projections of the mind, are not you and that you are not in
them/it. When the very deep old crusty karmic patterns and feelings are
roaring through you, it is indeed difficult to see your way through.
Just be with it and clear. Claim your own consciousness as who you are
and clear, clear, clear. For weeks now, so many complex layers are
bashing about in considerable confusion so that the distraction factor
is exponential. You swing from pillory to post. Dammed if you do;
damned if you don't. Lots of damage. Undamit! It can be messy at times.
This is really, really old shit that is up for people. Give them some
space but be with them. Give your self some space. Be.
Thinking is massively cyclical right now. Tight loops of wrongs wanting
to be righted dominate. Bad feelings kept shut and toxic because the
world doesn't allow our full, vulnerable expression of hurts from long
ago, they grow tentacles. Then the crap is acted out over and over.
This is karma. Good stuff and bad stuff...... it's all been stuffed.
This Grand Cross has knocked the stuffing out of everyone. If you make
the old stories real, if you make them into beliefs, if you make them
into your future...... you are going to suffer more and more. You
don't have to any more. You have choice. If you don't directly clear
your identification in the looping sludge, out they will pop as
projections. Blowback becomes pervasive and painful. Face what's coming
up in you. Let the upset be. Don't fortify it. In time it will fall
away.
Take some time for yourself,
Mark