May 13, 2005
You Are Lucky Being You
The thick plods on and it don't feel too novel. Tis kind of a cross
between a mystery and a who dunned it. All manner of free floating
sludge careens in the Dream. Take the scales off your eyes in this
Pisces passage. Venus and Mars are cruising in square to each other;
Venus in Gemini and Mars in Pisces. Gender conflict is tending to
surface. It is very difficult to express what you think and feel inside
without it coming out scrambled. The result can be primary depression,
the depression of birthing and relating as was imprinted when you was a
babe. Everybody walks around with all kinds of unresolved baby goop
that gets covered by the adult role and persona. There's leakage these
days. Just look around and at yourself. Folks are real busy with the
ascendancy of the life force this time of year but underneath there are
the wormy squirmies of the deep psyche. Clear your identification in
those patterns. Choose as best you can with whatever presents itself in
your life.
More sibling stuff is up and that impacts work relationships and the
goings on of beloveds. It really always is frustrating how we can't
quite ever convey our deepest care and love and such to the Other.
Finally, the clumsy or polished deliveries of our sentiments pass
through the system but our presence and being remain and endure.
Laughter with it all helps indeed. This stuff is seriously funny. Make
it real and it feels really serious. Hang in there and express
yourself.
There is a pervasive sinking tendency right now. Mars conjuncts Uranus
on the 15th at 7:54 am EDT and on the 19th at 7:37 pm EDT Neptune goes
retrograde. Mush is more how it feels rather than the decisive command
to the dogs of your will. It's a silly whirled funky chunky plunky day
by day ooze cruise. The amorphousness of it all is just below the
surface and this makes it hard to get a purchase on your life. Traction
and action can fall on the face of it. The mind clamors for more
happiness but the emptiness of what it delivers becomes more apparent.
Enjoy yourself. The Dream can't deliver that to you. It's who you are.
It's who you be. Be and see and allow the glee.
May your good luck and bad luck dissolve into the fortune of your being,
Mark